I have been slightly frustrated lately, and it is stupid.
You see I have this problem of not being content with what I have, and sometimes that can cause some problems. Also, I have a problem of trying to find meaning by having a small level of fame on the internet, which is dumb because I know that there are much greater things I should be finding my happiness in.
But I'd like to complain for just a second about something- again, something I probably shouldn't be complaining about. (Deep breath) ...here we go.
At my last check, I have 1878 subscribers on my youtube page. Now that isn't as many as some people, but I know a lot of people who would love to have that many. And while it is nice to have that many, I am discovering more and more that very few of them actually watch my videos. Most of my support and views are local. I have facebook group where I e-mail about 400 people when I get a new video. I post my videos to facebook and twitter. I do whatever else I can to promote them...but that's just smart marketing.
However, I did an experiment with my last video- "Let's Connect" to see what would happen if I didn't do any of that stuff, just to see how many of my subscribers actually watch my videos. The results have been very disappointing, as that video after 1 week still has less than 400 views. I would honestly rather have my subscriber count around 400 and know that they are all watching than close to 2000 and see that hardly any of them watch, it does nothing.
And then, here is my second part of frustration- 400 people watched "Let's Connect" and I have 5 followers on this blog. I have 9 followers on dailybooth. I only gained about 10 followers on twitter because of that video. Are you serious? That means out of my 400 subscribers that watch my videos, only about 10 of them actually care. So really I have 10 subscribers. So really any thought I ever had about me, billgrip, being a more well known person on the internet than johnny somebody with 25 subscribers is a lie.
Lag in Real Life got over 100,000 views, and that's great. The only problem is apparently my subscribers are all 13-17 year old boy gamers. So the only way I'll be able to reach them is if I make videos about video games. I don't even like video games that much anymore, I don't even own an x-box. Grrr, all so frustrating. Maybe I should just start over on youtube...
-Bill
Formal Events
Tonight we had a staff banquet for the 2009 Maranatha Summer staff...because tomorrow the summer staff leaves. It was a formal event.
Now I am not opposed to the idea of dressing up, being choked to death by a tie, and being scared silly that I'm going to spill something on my nice clothes (heaven forbid that would ever happen to me). No, those things don't bother me at all. In fact, I am an advocate of formal occasions, but only in moderation.
The food was good. The talking didn't go on for too long. In fact, I did enjoy myself. The only problem I really have with formal events, my only real complaint, is PICTURES. Holy crap, everyone and their mom (literally) brings along their digital camera and has to take a picture of themselves with every single person and their mom (literally) who is at the event.
The first 50 pictures I can live with, but it's the 700 after that that get a little annoying. I still see the flash, 3 hours later. Literally, there is a big white spot in the center of my eyes and that always gives me a migraine. So I have a migraine and all I really remember when it comes down to it from the night is bright lights. How do famous people deal with the paparazzi? I'd punch them in the face all the time. Or carry around a weapon.
So my point is, formal events are okay, but we don't need to treat them like they are the most amazing thing life has to offer and take a picture every single second we are there and with every single person and their mom.
But hey, I did look good. And my wife looked better : )
Ah yes.
-Billgrip
Now I am not opposed to the idea of dressing up, being choked to death by a tie, and being scared silly that I'm going to spill something on my nice clothes (heaven forbid that would ever happen to me). No, those things don't bother me at all. In fact, I am an advocate of formal occasions, but only in moderation.
The food was good. The talking didn't go on for too long. In fact, I did enjoy myself. The only problem I really have with formal events, my only real complaint, is PICTURES. Holy crap, everyone and their mom (literally) brings along their digital camera and has to take a picture of themselves with every single person and their mom (literally) who is at the event.
The first 50 pictures I can live with, but it's the 700 after that that get a little annoying. I still see the flash, 3 hours later. Literally, there is a big white spot in the center of my eyes and that always gives me a migraine. So I have a migraine and all I really remember when it comes down to it from the night is bright lights. How do famous people deal with the paparazzi? I'd punch them in the face all the time. Or carry around a weapon.
So my point is, formal events are okay, but we don't need to treat them like they are the most amazing thing life has to offer and take a picture every single second we are there and with every single person and their mom.
But hey, I did look good. And my wife looked better : )
Ah yes.
-Billgrip
My Life
This is the best blog title ever. It just makes you really interested and want to read it...right? Probably not, but that's okay with me.
Due to my new video entitled "Let's Connect", I am hoping to get some readers to this blog. And I thought it would be informative of me to let you guys know what I'm doing these days. I actually want to avoid doing a blog that is all about my personal life on this site, because I already have one of those somewhere else.
But regardless, I have taken the plunge (beginning with the title) and here is the typical "my life" blog.
Back in May, my wife and I moved out to a Bible camp, about 2 1/2 hours away from where we both lived our whole lives. That's not too far away, but it's still been quite an adjustment to not be around everyone we know. This Tuesday, summer camp ends and Lindsay and I officially take over the media program at this camp for a 1-year internship. After the internship, we will have to do some praying to see if we will stay here longer or not.
It's crazy how fast this past summer went...it was all kind-of a blur to me. Some cool stuff happened, but nothing that exciting. I've been running 3 miles per day consistently, I finished reading my Bible (the whole thing), I saw a bunch of people get married, I adjusted to being married myself. It was a good summer overall, and my entire life has been good overall as well.
I'm excited for fall, the fall colors, the dry crisp air, and FOOTBALL! I'm a huge football fan, and growing up in Nebraska I have to be a fan of the Nebraska Cornhuskers or I'll get tarred and feathered. But also, I love the NFL, mostly because of fantasy football, so I'm excited for that.
GO HUSKERS!! (see below)
That's all I have for now.
-Billgrip
Due to my new video entitled "Let's Connect", I am hoping to get some readers to this blog. And I thought it would be informative of me to let you guys know what I'm doing these days. I actually want to avoid doing a blog that is all about my personal life on this site, because I already have one of those somewhere else.
But regardless, I have taken the plunge (beginning with the title) and here is the typical "my life" blog.
Back in May, my wife and I moved out to a Bible camp, about 2 1/2 hours away from where we both lived our whole lives. That's not too far away, but it's still been quite an adjustment to not be around everyone we know. This Tuesday, summer camp ends and Lindsay and I officially take over the media program at this camp for a 1-year internship. After the internship, we will have to do some praying to see if we will stay here longer or not.
It's crazy how fast this past summer went...it was all kind-of a blur to me. Some cool stuff happened, but nothing that exciting. I've been running 3 miles per day consistently, I finished reading my Bible (the whole thing), I saw a bunch of people get married, I adjusted to being married myself. It was a good summer overall, and my entire life has been good overall as well.
I'm excited for fall, the fall colors, the dry crisp air, and FOOTBALL! I'm a huge football fan, and growing up in Nebraska I have to be a fan of the Nebraska Cornhuskers or I'll get tarred and feathered. But also, I love the NFL, mostly because of fantasy football, so I'm excited for that.
GO HUSKERS!! (see below)
Lindsay and I are going on vacation to Minn
eapolis Minnesota next week to visit her sister who lives up there. I love road-tripping, and I love being with my wife, so I know it will be a fun trip. I'll get to see the mall of America and who knows what else. Maybe I'll even make a video for my extras channel while I'm up there.
eapolis Minnesota next week to visit her sister who lives up there. I love road-tripping, and I love being with my wife, so I know it will be a fun trip. I'll get to see the mall of America and who knows what else. Maybe I'll even make a video for my extras channel while I'm up there.That's all I have for now.
-Billgrip
Unoriginal
So there probably exists a post somewhere on the millions of blogs online with the title "Unoriginal," so therefore my point is proven as soon as you read the title. You see, yesterday I came to the conclusion that I am mostly an unoriginal person. Now I don't mean to come off as a depressed loser who writes blogs to let out my emotions, so don't interpret this that way. Hopefully you'll see what I mean in a minute.
As our world has become increasingly digital, many of us have developed a double life in a sense. Yes, we have our real life and then our online life with facebook, youtube, myspace, twitter, blogger, xanga, break, ign, espn, yahoo, and more. Who we are in person and who we are online can be two completely different things (although I try to keep them as close as possible). I had an idea to write a blog yesterday, but I didn't know what about. Then I asked myself "Why do I even have this blog?" I already have had a blog on xanga for years, so why the heck did I start this one? Was I bored or something?
No, the truth is that my friends told me I should get one. And since I'm all about "fitting in" I decided to try it out. From this I realized that the only reason I really have facebook, myspace, xanga, and even youtube is because my friends who are apparently original were on there first. And they said "Hey Bill, you should get a facebook!" And I said "Okay, sure." From there I looked around my house and realized that about half the video games I own are because my friends bought them and I wanted to play with them so I bought the game as well. Then I realized that most of the music I own is because my friends were interested in it first. My clothes...half of them are shirts I borrowed from friends and never returned.
THE WORST PART IS that my friends are very flaky (no offense if you are reading this). They will be interested in one thing and then move onto the next thing like a week later. Here's a few examples- xanga. I got that blog my senior year of high school because all my friends told me too. Three months later, they never checked theirs. Battlefield 2. Over Christmas break a few friends played that a lot and told me it was awesome. I bought it and by the time I had it installed they were all playing Team Fortress 2. Youtube. For most of 2005-2007, my friends from wow4now made videos a lot and put them up on youtube. I got a youtube account just to comment on their videos. Then I started making videos of my own again (I had in like 2003). It was really fun when we were all making videos at the same time. But they seemed to have lost interest. Now I try to make a video at least every month and wow4now hasn't put out a new video for over half a year. And I have a hard time getting them to be excited enough to actually be in videos with me. Bleh.
Now is all of this bad? Not really, its not like my friends are doing crack or something and bringing me along. But it does show me that I am slightly more of a follower than a leader based on my possessions. And the things I really like all by myself, like disc golf, making videos, being married, lecrae, and fantasy football...most of my friends don't really care about, nor can I convince them to care about these things.
So as you can see, I am mostly an unoriginal person, and the things my friends got me interested in they don't really care about anymore (for the most part), and the things I'm interested in my friends don't care about. I'm sure this blog will be just another example on the long list of things I got into because I'm unoriginal only to see my friends abandon it. Oh well.
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